Ch. 5 The Surreal Life

I had an interesting thought yesterday as I was sitting in pain unable to do anything. A week ago, I was fine. Good health, feeling good, eating well, happy with life. Sure, I had cancer, but it was not affecting my quality of life. A week later and I can't eat, I'm in pain, have no energy and can barely get off the couch. So the question becomes, how is this better? I was healthy, now I'm not.

10 years from now, I will probably look back at this and realize that it was worth if in the long run. But short term, my quality of life has gone way down hill.

Note: I am a big fan of food. Since I had chemo, I not only can't taste anything, but it hurts to eat. Now, as a diet plan, this is great, but as a way to get better, it kinda sucks. My wife made Captain Crunch French toast for breakfast, and it had almost no taste. I might as well have eaten cardboard with Styrofoam bits.

Life moves on and I am growing used to my now lower quality of life. Every day I feel a little better, but every day I find I am eating less and less. Hopefully it is something the Dr. will be able to help me with, or I am going to be a stick in 6 months.

On another side note: My cable company has stopped carrying Fox. As I can do little but sit on the couch, to lose out on 2 of the 5 TV programs I watch, not to mention the National Championship game is really getting me cranky. A friend of mine today called me Cranky Cancer Man, and it is true. All I know is that both Fox and the cable company will be getting a call from Cranky Cancer Man so please feel free to pity whomever I reach on the phone.